I'm stupid. I got my hopes up. That was my stupid mistake. It always is. I should have known better. Of course it doesn't help when everyone tells you 'Stop freaking out, you'll get a callback!' I guess the truth is I got used to spending time with Sam, I miss him and I got the idea in my head that if I got a call back I would get in the show and then I would see him all the time. I need my big brother back.
I just don't want to disappoint my dad, and I know I shouldn't worry because not getting a callback wont disappoint him, but he was so excited when he heard I signed up for auditions. Then he heard me practicing for auditions and got his hopes up. I know he won't really be disappointed in me but I know I let him down someway.